You’ve decided to kill yourself…
your mum opens the door of your room, and your just there hanging from the ceiling or just laying in bed not moving the slightest with an empty packet of pills next to you, she bursts out into tears never going to forget seeing you like that ever in her life always wondering what she did wrong, for you wanting to do such a thing to yourself, she will never be the same again, never being able to go through a day without thinking about you and just crying and crying, missing you so much and just never being the same.
your sibling walking past your room, missing you so much, having to play by themself because you aren’t around, always wondering was it because i was mean that day? is it my fault? being to upset to say or do anything in life anymore.
your bestfriend getting a call from your mum telling her that your gone, your mum barely being able to talk just choking because of all the tears, your bestfriend drops the phone runs into her room and just thinks it was me it was all my fault, i wish we didn’t fight or none of this would have ever happened you’d still be here.
your bestfriend going to school and everyone asking whats wrong whats wrong? then they tell everyone what happens no one is able to smile all just sitting there incomplete silence eveyones minds racing it must have been me, i should have never said that, i was just joking, everyone feeling so guilty
your dad comes home from work, your mum tells him what happens, he gets so angry he brakes all the plates all he can think is why why why why was i so tough, i just did it because i cared now its to late to say i love you to say how much i care.
so many people are affected by your death your family are now going through depression, your bestfriend just sitting there every lunch by herself, your class friends looking up each time the class door opens but then its never you, everyone just wishing it was just a horrible nightmare, waking up each morning just to see you again but not being able to:(
everyone does care, they may not say it but they do!
don’t let what people say affect you, you’re better than that.
you are beautiful, just smile and smile and smile be happy, laugh till your stomach hurts!
if anyone ever needs to talk i am here to listen